Thick and Thin of it

100 lbs

Well, I’ve officially lost 100 lbs since I had my surgery and I feel fantastic! I still have a good ways to go until I meet the goal that my surgeon set for me. Now, my surgeon said that according to my height and body type, I should weigh 130 lbs. I think I will be happy to see 150 because I don’t foresee myself at 130 lbs because that is just way too thin for me. I don’t know if that is just my mind telling me that 130 lbs is too thin or if I have just been so heavy for so long that the idea of being an ‘average’ weight makes me nervous! I guess it really doesn’t matter though because I am headed in the direction of where I want to be and need to be for the sake of my health.

I love the fact that I feel so much better than I used to and I don’t regret the decision that I have made. Sure there are limitations on what I can eat but it’s really not as bad as I thought it would be. I rarely have issues with over eating because you learn very quickly what you can and can not eat and how much you can eat. And for me, as a fail safe, when I wasn’t sure if I was full or not, I opted to stop eating rather than risk overeating. Your first episode of overeating will be painful beyond your wildest imagination. Don’t let anyone tell you any different. It hurts! And your immediate desire to vomit is a welcome relief. But it’s a learning experience that everyone that I know who has had the surgery has had to go through. And you do learn and you do go on and hopefully you don’t have to have that experience again.

You get the whole speech from the doctor and the nutrionist that this is a lifestyle change and while yes, you can understand that, you really don’t, not until after the procedure. After the procedure you can look at another person in a restaurant who hasn’t had the surgery and wonder how in the world they can manage to eat so much food! When just months before you could have eaten all that and more. You begin to see others in a different light. It’s hard to look at someone who is morbidly obese and not wonder why they don’t do something to get healthy. You think to yourself, I did it, why can’t they? Your entire outlook on life will change, and you begin to see that that was the goal all along. You have to start seeing things in a new, more positive light. You start going to the gym and working out and liking it! You can go out and play with your kids and not get too tired to function after just a few minutes. These are the benefits of the lifestyle change that you have chosen.

You will have people ask you why. People will want to know why you just couldn’t stop eating. But these are people who have no clue what it is like to live in our world. So you have to understand that they will never understand.
Joanna

posted by JoandTerri @ 4:46 AM